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Wednesday, March 03, 2004
u can see me relocated to http://www.livejournal.com/users/msgucci
everybody was talking about it
so i had to see why it was so much better
and like i can customize so many things
its def cool
and plus i think i can post pictures much more easily
remember i was having trouble with that?
well hopefully not anymore
hehehe
come visit my new journal!
~Laila~
Posted at 10:30 pm by msgucci89
u know what really bothers me
when people have nothing better to do with themselves than cause problems
like are they that lame that they have to create something to fuss over?
i just dont understand why they make the smallest things
into the biggest mountains
well newsflash
i dont have to see ur ugly face again
i couldnt care less what u are doing with ur life either
u should consider enjoying ur life
not worrying about messing up other peoples
especially because ur efforts are fruitless cuz i really dont care
u arent worth the time it takes to hate u
so i dont
cuz i cant be bothered
it just goes to show how pathetic u are
plus
last time i checked a smile was not a dirty look
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
sitting in english i was thinking
its really funny
how not too long ago the ultimate goal was to hang out with him
how stupid i was for that period of a couple months (for this reason, and others)
because now
now that i really dont care anymore
now that i had forgotten about the whole thing months ago
now that i have no need for him whatsoever
he appears
and wont fucking go away
and i realize how awful he is
we should have never been so obsessed
money doesnt buy decency
funny how now its like i need to start a project
to get rid of the "project"
~Laila~
p.s. to all guys~
nobody wants to hear an announcement of the dimensions of ur dick, so spare us please.
Posted at 05:24 pm by msgucci89
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
still not feeling inspired
i still dont have anything overly interesting to post hahaha
 but it was sunny today, which made me happy
im trying to think of a good bay area scene for my art project
i really need a good pic for this week
but i dont think i will get one til this weekend
Flowers grow
They're everywhere you go
I feel, I feel
Rainbow sky
Whenever you are by
I feel, I feel
I feel for you
I can go on and on and on and on
I feel, I feel, I feel
You know I feel for you
Stars appear
The moment you are near
I feel, I feel
I feel for you
I can go on and on and on and on
I feel for you
I can go on and on and on and on
I feel, I feel, I feel
You know I feel for you
Every second of the day (I feel for you)
You know I just can't stay away (I feel for you)
Baby when you're next to me (I feel for you)
That's the way I like to feel (I feel for you)
Color shine
A sunbeam through my mind
I feel for you
I can go on and on and on and on
I feel, I feel, I feel
You know I feel for you
~Kylie Minogue "I Feel for You"
i was downloading some songs from her new cd today - they are good
~Laila~
Posted at 06:12 pm by msgucci89
Monday, March 01, 2004
well i dont have anything all that interesting to say. but danielle requested that i post. hehehe
well for all of those of you who care, i have found out that yes in fact i will be going to college somewhere.
uc irvine has decided to accept me haha
i havent posted in a while
i was gone this weekend
beating peter at tetherball, riding atv's, and visiting my aunt and uncle at their new vacation home
oh it was thrilling
the oscars were entertaining
especially on the big screen tv hehehe
i really liked charlize's dress....i was hoping perhaps tom ford could help me w/ something for senior ball haha
i think im experiencing a bit of a cold right now cuz my nose is all stuffed up
its time for spring
i want to wear sandals
and skirts
time for shopping!
also time for spring break....mexico!
k well that is all the boring stuff about my life i have to post at the moment
but look out
the stalker walks among us
~Laila~
Posted at 06:29 pm by msgucci89
Thursday, February 26, 2004
"I don't know what to do about my life
But I know my rule
No second chance
You promised me
You promised me
You promised me"
~from In Grid "You Promised Me"
nice try bitch
im not that dumb
i know exactly what ur doing
i thought we had a deal
negotiations dont work
when you dont keep up your end
no second chance
oh wait - you've already blown it more times than i can count on one hand!
so a "second chance" is a little amusing
three strikes and ur out baby
but lemme tell u
u've gotten way more than 3
so usually i would tell you to watch it
but this time, consider yourself way more than warned
you will be sorry u ever came into this world
you will wish you could be in hell
because hell will be much better than what i will make you experience
~Laila~
p.s. next time you should consider training your employees a little better. and by the way...what are you paying him with anyways?
Posted at 04:41 pm by msgucci89
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
this is dedicated to......a certain log out there
Boy you know you make me float
Boy you're really gettin' me high
I feel like I'm on dope
'Cos you, you serve me on a regular
Boy we need to tie this rope
Before we drift any deeper
Baby now hold me close
Let's take this over board now
I want you to
Rock the boat, rock the boat, rock the boat, rock the boat
Work the middle, work the middle, work the middle, work the middle
Change positions, switch positions, new position, new position
Stroke it for me, stroke it for me, stroke it for me, stroke it for me
Ooh baby I love your stroke
'Cos you, 'cos you get me where I'm going
In jury you'll get my vote
'Cos I believe, I believe you know just what you doing now
Baby now we can coast, let's don't get in a hurry
That's too slow, go ahead and put that thing in overdrive
I want you to
Rock the boat, rock the boat, rock the boat, rock the boat
Work the middle, work the middle, work the middle, work the middle
Change positions, switch positions, new position, new position
Stroke it for me, stroke it for me, stroke it for me, stroke it for me
Stroke it for me
Stroke it baby, stroke it baby
Work it baby, work it baby
Stroke it
There is something I want you to do
I want you to use yourself
Like you never ever used it before
To explore my body
Until you reach the shore
I'll be calling, calling for more
(Rock the boat)
Rock the boat, rock the boat, rock the boat, rock the boat
i think u just need to rock the boat a little harder and the seamen will get the message hehe
~~~~~~~
my mom is really pissing me off right now
like i dont think she could be any more irrational about this weekend
like she really needs to just get a grip on herself
i would much prefer to stay home and watch tv while she leaves at noon on fri or whatever godforsaken hour she wants to leave at
~~~~~~~
so i was contemplating things today while i was making up a math thing 6th period in mr shoens class
just some words of advice
dont spend ur whole life pretending to be nice to people who u really dont like
like i have realized how much happier i have been lately
when i dont have to pretend to be perky to people just because i felt like i had to
like i mean certainly there are times in life where u have to have a working relationship w/ people
and be pleasant to them
but like in regards to friends
when krista said to me last night "i thought u guys were like best friends"
i guess all i could do was laugh
because it was always such an act
i mean im not saying u have to be mean to people
but dont waste ur time around people who dont appreciate u
i like the way i have reshaped my life recently
i dont need people who are using me for shit - transportation, information, entertainment, etc.
do whats best for u and what truly makes u happy 
~Laila~
Posted at 06:26 pm by msgucci89
Monday, February 23, 2004
ok so has anybody else noticed the creepy camper parked on campolindo drive outside of campo? yeah well its bizarre. i think perhaps there is a scary man inside scoping out high school girls to rape in his rv that has satellite tv. this mysterious camper has been parked in the same location since saturday night. perhaps someone should be notified of this suspicious activity. because, honestly, who else besides a rapist parks their camper along the street against a school.
~Laila~
Posted at 06:06 pm by msgucci89
Sunday, February 22, 2004
im bored and sitting at my comp and talking to danielle
and i start thinking about things
like with dance right now it seems like the art is being sucked out
in senior ensemble
everything has become just another task
throwing 80 thousand people into the dance
and butchering it completely
just to put it in the right time length category or whatever
like whatever happened to the spiritual meaning?
the art?
the emotional value?
i dont know
i feel like im not developing as a dancer or person with it right now
im just waiting for other people to catch up
i cant wait around my entire life
for those who lag behind to catch up to where they should be
its like when something turns into a task
it loses any sort of emotional connection
sometimes the destabilization of the piece is what makes it what it is
when u try to stabilize it, it ruins the thing that makes it wonderful
it just seems like in general when some things turn into tasks
they lose the emotional value
like sometimes when u feel like you HAVE to hang out with someone
the time you spend together begins to become agonizing
like there is no escape
it seems like a forced situation
instead of letting things develop on their own
it's like you feel as if you have to
you don't want to arrive
and you want to escape the whole time hide and go seek *wink**wink* hehehe
and then when it's over, you're relieved
it just seems to suck things dry
when you feel as though you are completing a task
just let things flow on their own
don't try to force it
i'll probably come around......maybe eventually if you're lucky
so just let me do it on my own
and don't tell me i have to
~Laila~
Posted at 02:31 pm by msgucci89
there's not a thing i wouldn't do
I can see the red, white and free in you
You light the night up like the moon
And underneath your clouds, I see the blue
You're hopeless 'cause you tell the truth
The stars are jealous of your shine
If you were mine
There's not a thing I wouldn't do
You're black and beautiful, yellow, tan
You're white as light and soft as sand
With greens and greys and oh for days
A silver lining on the way you cover everyone
Just like a morning sun
You turn me into someone I would rather be
OOO- I love your every color
OOO- I love your everything
You wear the day around you
Like it's yours to stay around you
Maybe I could stay around you too
If that's alright with you
You're coffee brown and bubble gum pink
And oh I think the shade of you is on the brink
Of changing all the ways I see the world
I could drown inside a single drop
Of all the kinds of things you got
And all the kinds of things I'm not
Might just give me a chance to see
From way up where you are
Above the silent stars
Just dancing in the sky
You're better than any rainbow
You're brighter than the sun
You look like my first day of summer
When my spring is on the run
You're gold and more gold
And you're platinum too
With snow toned, copper attitude
I don't know what I'd do without you
I don't know what I'll do about you
~Train "Your Every Color"
sometimes i just have to stop for a minute
and breathe in everything around me
every color that makes things beautiful
and i hope that its not too good to be true
i hope i wont snap out of this
life actually seems
not so bad right now
im even getting along really well
with my family
i mean there's always the little things
like
"this makes me look fat"
or
"so-and-so doesn't like me"
but it just seems like
recently all those little things
just dont matter as much
because i've learned to discover
the positive driving forces in my life
.........maybe i've just been destabilized.........
~Laila~ Posted at 01:06 am by msgucci89
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
i saw this quote the other day and i thought it was just great so im putting it on here
"I'm not a SNOB, I'm just better than everyone else"
hehehehe
hmm well i dont feel inspired to say anything else at the moment...i downloaded some good train songs the other day (train the artist train...dont worry im not chuga chugging the choo choo hahaha)......mmm thats about it ... maybe i will post again later
~Laila~
Posted at 06:12 pm by msgucci89
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